Stuck in the Future

It seems like at least once a day, I log on to Facebook and there are an assortment of  articles ranging from “Things I Wish I Knew at 18” or “Top 20 Ways to a Happier Life” on my newsfeed. More often than not, I’m a sucker for this genre of writing. It sheds an interesting perspective on-simply put- the past. We all have skeletons in our closet small and large. It seems that so often we get caught up in what has already happened, what choices we made, or how happy we used to be. But as I head into my 5th and final year of school and basketball, I find myself doing the exact opposite.

I am constantly looking ahead. Part of it is excitement, and the other half is disbelief. To think that my days as a college athlete are numbered is absolutely mind-blowing. To think that in nearly 10 months I will be giving my senior speech is a tough pill to swallow. And to think that I will be off and headed into the real world is hard to imagine. Knowing that one day my time playing college hoops will be over leaves a pit in my stomach.

Hence why I can’t stop thinking about that ‘one day.’ Many of us are engrossed in the past. Many have learned from the past. Some of us, like myself, are caught up in the future. And some, like myself, are learning from the future. Before you jump to conclusions about whether or not this is possible, let me explain.

To me, having the slightest awareness of our future allows us to live in the present. But not just live in the present: cherish every single part of it both good and bad. Basketball is all I have ever known. Knowing that it is the closest to being over than it ever has been is one of the best realizations I’ve experienced to date. It has led me to an even greater appreciation for the opportunities I’ve been given and the people I’ve met along the way. I know I mention the ‘people’ as somewhat of an after thought. But they deserve every bit of credit, and probably more, than I will ever deserve: my family, my teammates, my coaches, and Drake University. They are the reason behind my gratitude and always will be the reason behind it down the road.

So yes, what I’m saying is that I am stuck in the future. But maybe that’s the secret. Have you learned from your past? Love it. But you can gain something from what you know of your future, too. Take what you have now and make the most of it- because one day, you may not have it anymore. And that goes far beyond the basketball court.

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